I've loved and I've lost

Let me start on the good news first…

So first on the good news list is we won this Filipino presentation thinggy that we’ve been cramming for like 3 days, and it all paid off cause we won and the presentation was literally everywhere it was everywhere we didn’t know what to do and some of us forgot the lines, but we still managed to win.

Second is, I passed my Economics exam, which is very good, because I needed to pass that exam in order to have a good and satisfying grade on my report card.

Third and final is, I passed my Physics exam!! Yess! I’m so ecstatic because I really want to pass that exam, I need that in order not to fail Physics (Science) on my report card, which is by the way the biggest point unit, it is a 1.8 unit subject, if you fail it’ll be like failing 2 subject, so anyways, I literally thought I’m going to fail that exam, but I didn’t! I’m so happy! I prayed hard for this and it all paid off, thank you so much God! :)

Then on the bad news… 

I failed at the average grade on my Chinese grade, it’s considered “Foreign Language” on my English report card, since I’m studying on a Filipino-Chinese school, we have English and Chinese report card, I failed at the average grade of my Chinese grade, my grade is 73, very disappointing, plus it’s so hard to get a good grade, not like when we were still Juniors, and they expect us to cope to it in a matter of few weeks, being a Senior student in Chinese class is so hard. =_=

So now I’m just waiting for my Mathematics, Filipino, English and Statistics exam results, I hope I passed all of this. Wish me luck guys! :)

Annoyed and Irritated (although I think they’re the same thing)

You know that feeling when you thought someone is being true to you and then you found out they’re fake anyway? That’s what I’m feeling right now, I don’t know I think it’s just mix emotions or I just need to sleep this off after a long day from rehearsal, I just don’t know who to trust now tbh, except my good group of friends I know I can trust them but other than that.

Some people are just so fake it annoys the shit out of me, like bitch would you please be real and find which side are you on? You can’t be on both sides, you can’t be like, “Oh he said bla bla bla bla” and then be like, “Oh yes, he said that bla bla bla” on the other side it’s annoying as fuck.

These are the people or persons I get to see and interact everyday in School, they talk to you and they’re like, “Hi, Hello. ^_^” and behind your back they say shitty things, it’s fucking annoying, like fucking grow up. I know there will be other people like that when I get out of School, but frankly, just stop your shitload game and be true to yourself it’s annoying and irritating.

BOTTOM LINE: TRUST NO BITCH

Anonymity is fun, it depends on how you use your anonymity power, but sometimes there are things that are too much…

Like for example, saying bad/negative/mean things to the person by being anonymous, I mean what’s the point of doing this? Have you accomplished something? Other than making the person feel shit about themselves? And what if they did the same thing to you? Will you feel good about it? Knowing someone thinks that way about you?

I mean get some balls please, why hide behind anonymity when you can tell them face to face what’s the problem, be brave you have nothing to lose, the person might even acknowledge you for that, rather than sending nasty messages to him/her

Bottom line is, if you have something to say to someone say it to them in their face not hiding over some gray face or something, it’s not fun being a hater tbh, and it’s not being hated either.

I’ve experienced a lot of hating here on Tumblr and let me tell you they suck! They really suck! Those messages makes you wanna doubt yourself and just sometimes wanna kill yourself (although I haven’t resolved to conclusion) hating is cyber-bullying which can you get into jail if you get caught. So be kind to others and expect the same thing in return. That’s all.

P.S. I’m too lazy to proof-read so if I have some “wrong grammars” or some grammar that needs correction, please ignore it or inform me on my ask section. Thanks! :)

Well here are my thoughts, but it doesn’t essentially mean it’s true, but this is what I’ve experienced so far… Well for the past 3-4 months I guess.

I hate stress tbh, I hate being stressed, especially when teachers bombard you on lots of schoolworks and expect you to pass it the other day or the day after that, it’s like, “Bitch, calm down” seriously though, it’s like the worse feeling in the World, you wake up everyday feeling tired of everything. Ugh.

Reviewing for College/University Entrance Exams, well, we can’t review anything since I said before we are bombarded with lots of schoolworks that needs accomplishment pronto! We don’t have anytime to review anymore so the result is, we guess the answers on the exam which is not good considering we’re talking about “OUR” future.

Lack of Sleep, well I know some of you might say, you’ve survived the rest of your high school life with not enough amount of sleep, well let me tell you about this, we almost don’t get any sleep anymore because of the shitloads of work that needs the accomplishment, tbh it’s really tiring, sometimes I want to sleep for days but I can’t. Ugh.

Cramming/Procrastinating, sure everyone does this nowadays, but cramming for an exam is just a big no-no, especially when you’re graduating, you need good grades for the universities/colleges that you’ve applied to, and cramming isn’t really fun, you tend to forget at least 1/4 or 1/2 of what you’ve reviewed the other day, do you wanna know why we’re cramming? Yes! Because of the shitloads of work that has been given to us.

I wanna add more things to this list but you see I can’t, people (from the higher above. if you get my drift) are lurking everywhere and if they manage to see this, I might get in trouble, so I might as well just say this. Being a SENIOR is a tough job, although they say they’re practically practicing you for college, sometimes I feel it’s too much and I just wanna scream and say “FUCK THIS SHIT”

And since today (Monday) and tomorrow (Tuesday) is a holiday, I’m trying to relax, but instead I know I’ll cram for English and Physics tomorrow, which by the way they’re both hella hard. Especially Physics, but I know I can do this!

Lol. So anyways, I’ve been engaged in reading the Fifty Shades Trilogy, I’m currently reading Fifty Shades of Grey, I started last Sunday, I’m such a loser, I should have been finished within this week, but as usual, BUSY SCHEDULE, don’t mind my improper use of grammar, I’m too lazy to grammar check. Lol. Anyways, I really like Fifty Shades of Grey, although, yes there are some scenes that are NSFW but besides that the storyline is good, I actually like it and I can’t wait to read the second book.

So, wish me luck on finishing this book, and wish me luck on my exams, especially Physics and Math. Math is such a pain in the ass, I can’t with Analytical Geometry, but of course I need to pass these subjects because I’m a Senior and graduating student. Wish me luck guys! Lol.